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February 2008 
Finally Free
Posted on Jan 21st, 2008
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Steve
Steve
You came to me in the spirit of friendship
I love my friends
I help my friends however I can
You wanted more
I trusted you
You wanted me to help you
I did so wholeheartedly
I gave you everything I had
You wanted more
What was wrong
The evil lurked
Reared it ugly head
The chaos of a shattered soul looking for sanctuary by sucking the life out of your "Lover"
My Soul was vanishing
Along with my dignity
Terror
Consumed me
Emasculated
Empty
My Heart
A forgotten piece of debrit
Hours became days
Weeks seemed months
Years
Eternity
No Way Out
so lonely
Was I
Already dead
Knocking
On the Door
I did not desire it
It seemed inevitable
To young to die
I wished you were dead
A sign of life
None like I had ever considered
It was then
That I realized
My Salvation was to Ours
My last gift to you
I had to free myself
Understanding does not come cheaply
I paid the price
You Meant no harm
I Forgive You
You asked if I had regrets
Through the depths
I emerge stronger
Today I am Finally Free
Peace
Blissfully
I can live now
I can trust again
Free to
Love again
I love my friends
I help my friends however I can
You wanted more
I trusted you
You wanted me to help you
I did so wholeheartedly
I gave you everything I had
You wanted more
What was wrong
The evil lurked
Reared it ugly head
The chaos of a shattered soul looking for sanctuary by sucking the life out of your "Lover"
My Soul was vanishing
Along with my dignity
Terror
Consumed me
Emasculated
Empty
My Heart
A forgotten piece of debrit
Hours became days
Weeks seemed months
Years
Eternity
No Way Out
so lonely
Was I
Already dead
Knocking
On the Door
I did not desire it
It seemed inevitable
To young to die
I wished you were dead
A sign of life
None like I had ever considered
It was then
That I realized
My Salvation was to Ours
My last gift to you
I had to free myself
Understanding does not come cheaply
I paid the price
You Meant no harm
I Forgive You
You asked if I had regrets
Through the depths
I emerge stronger
Today I am Finally Free
Peace
Blissfully
I can live now
I can trust again
Free to
Love again
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Hi Steve, please take no criticism for what I say here - it's just sharing…
I read your blog entry here and by what I see you wrote, it seems you gave way more of yourself then you should have to begin with. Most likely cuz you're a wonderful person… perhaps some because you don't want/know/realize something inside of you that you need to address yet. I speak this way because I've had the same. we can give and give… but we can also OVER give and neglect the 'give' to ourselves. It's okay to be your human. If someone is too dependant, then perhaps the best way to befriend them is tell them gently to step back and reflect within themselves. We can't ever 'fix' in 'them' what they / we have not addressed in ourSelves.
My best! I'm glad you are happy in your current state of matters now. :)